I dont know what is up? Why am I wallowing in self-pity. At some point during every skype conversation I find myself chocked up and tearing and after I am always gasping for breath because the tears dont stop. What is my problem? Why do I miss them so much? Why do I feel so shit all the time? I honestly can't handle it, and I cant explain it, cause this wasnt ever me. You know. Being so needy and feeling so incredibly alone. I hate it. I just hate it. I hate being alone, and without my family in Singapore. I feel like they left me. Like they left me alone, and like they dont care, and like the world is moving on without me. It's selfish, very selfish, to feel this way, and hate my situation so much, when so much is being spent so that I can lead the life that I lead, but I just hate it.