i wish i wrote more. i remember a time when i used to sort of witty and fun and at the same time thoughtful. well i'd like to think i am/was pretty thoughtful.

it's been a good few weeks living alone. maybe it doesnt count cause i have an auntie who cooks for me and a helper who cleans and does my laundry. but leaving away from the folks has never been so comfortable? it may be because i am still in singapore and i still have my friends around me. of course that's the reason. of course it is. but i am thankful for that. that i can still feel somewhat 'at home' even with the family gone.

it's surreal. living apart from the family. for one, i feel sort of rootless. like i float around. and i do. float around, that is. from place to place (mostly the ICA and RafflesCity, i've found).

eagerly awaiting the arrival of my itouch. it's been too long since my iphone died on me. i tried to zoom into a picture with my fingers the others on jialin's nokia. major withdrawal syndroms. and while it's probably better for me that i am not listening to music all the time, i miss it. so i am excited for the itouch to come. it should be in my hands in a couple of hours. hopefully.

i dont have any significant thoughts in my head. and i think i have gone too far in my understanding on online media to ever fully reveal myself online. i know it can be traced down and that anonymity is a lie.

code names.

met jesse stork and alena yesterday. it wasnt so bad. but i am just going to be honest and say that it did cross my mind that their pda (which wasnt all that uncomfortable) was him trying to prove something. she didnt even touch him, well she did, but hardly. but he kept wanted to stroke her, or walk with his arms around her. and couples do that. i get it. but it's me, they dont know me, they know MY DAD. that's strange right? i dont know. maybe i'm a lot more conservative than i thought. i wonder how i'd be with my boyfriend. i think we'd be affectionate, but not infront of other people. well, it could also be because he's not asian. that makes a difference. but again, i didnt feel all that uncomfortable. it did get a bit boring towards the end, but that might be my fault.

lack of capitalisation and extensive use of fullstops.